The things and objects that we store and
accumulate over the years are worth for their purpose, but also for their
symbolic meanings.
We keep clothes - of all ages – hoping
we’ll dress them again one day, when we lose weight or when it is fashionable
again. We keep our notebooks from school, when our handwriting was still in its
infancy, and then we add to the pile, our children’s notebooks. We keep boxes
and boxes filled with objects because they remind us something, or because they
were a gift from someone we like. We keep objects from someone who departed,
far away or forever, as if we could preserve a piece of that person with us. We
keep broken crockery and furniture, waiting for the time when we will retrieve
them, waiting for a time that we don’t have nor will we ever have. We keep
letters and notes, magazines, yellowed books with their diluted print and
indistinct phrases...
We keep completely useless things that
lose their original meaning and fail to refer us to any place or memory. But we
keep them. We keep them in order to have a sense of security, continuity,
permanence! We keep them to fight against forgetfulness, but this is a paradox:
if we need an object to remember an event or someone it is because we have
already forgotten them!
And there comes a time when the cupboards
are full of stored things - from our childhood, our children’s, our
grandchildren’s, our grandparents’! Closets, garages and attics crammed with
things that will never be remembered, touched, used or useful!
But when the time to donate comes, the
time to get rid of that pile of junk that the objects turned into, that memory
comes back, that treacherous memory that takes us to the past. And all the
memories come to life, as if suddenly they had woken up. And rather than fixing
them or donating them, we get stuck with the memories that each object will awaken in us and, in the end, it all comes back to pile up in the same place. We
shut the closets, garages and crammed attics, and keep everything again - as if
the objects were our life, everything we
lived and lost in the past. We cling to objects to avoid releasing the past, for
fear that when they are gone, a piece of us will also
go, and will become dilute and lost.
It is true that we are connected to everything
that we have by a sort of invisible umbilical cord. The objects must be like
children - at some point we have to let them go, to go on existing elsewhere,
and so that we can continue with our lives.
When we bind the objects - to us –
everything becomes cluttered, dusty, occupying a space that should be aired and
filled with new things, new experiences, a new life...
We must rid ourselves of things we do not
use, of everything that we do not want, and create a scope in our lives - open
spaces to flood with light. Things do not mean anything after a certain time -
they have already served their purpose. We have to let them go! What resists
and persists in us is the memory!
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